I Have No Idea What I Want to Do With My Life

I really used to envy those people who came into college semi-knowing what they wanted to do with their life. They seemed to have plans and majors/jobs that they felt were their calling. Sociology, the major I came into college with, was far from my calling. I literally read a definition of sociology my junior year of high school and bam, decided that should be my major.

It was okay in the beginning. I took Sociological Imagination during fall semester of freshman year and enjoyed it. But when I was sitting in my first class of Introduction to Sociology Seminar in spring semester, I immediately knew I had to get out and switch my major. After some thought, I settled on graphic design and got myself out of sociology.

Switching was the best decision because I finally feel like I have somewhat of a direction with what I’m doing in school. I’m feeling more confident in my major, loving my classes, proud of what I’m producing and working hard towards my degree. People constantly ask me, though, “What do you want to do with your degree after you graduate?” I never know what to say because I don’t know. I feel so clueless and the mere thought of having to make a decision generally makes me nervous.

All I know for sure is that I want to be in a good place regarding my job and other aspects of my life (mindset, body, etc.)  As far as job titles/careers go…there are so many different things I could be and choosing something is definitely going to take some effort and work on my part. Instead of being a ball of nerves, though, I’m going to take some advice from Tracee Ellis Ross and “allow the space between where I am and where I want to be to inspire me and not terrify me.”

I know I always figure things out and that this situation is no exception. I’ll find a job that fits me just like I found a major that fits me. I’m going to try to stop being distraught and terrified over not having everything figured out yet. My plan is to continue being hardworking everyday and get excited about the future. So to everyone who has asked/will ask me about my plans: I honestly don’t know what I want to do with my life. But you better believe I’ll have it figured out someday in the near future.


One thought on “I Have No Idea What I Want to Do With My Life

  1. Colleen says:

    My dear Ilanna, you always land on your feet! I have full faith that you will find the right job and make your mark on the world!


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